You are God and I am Not

John 14:1 “Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me. 2 My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? 3 And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. 4 You know the way to the place where I am going.”

Eccl 7: 1. A good name is better than fine perfume, and one’s day of death is better than his day of birth 2. It is better to enter a house of mourning than a house of feasting, since death is the end of every man,and the living should take this to heart. 3.Sorrow is better than laughter,for a sad countenance is good for the heart. 4. The heart of the wise is in the house of mourning, but the heart of fools is in the house of pleasure.

I stopped on the porch of the white farmhouse and took in the bright blue sky and the beautiful colors of a perfect April day… Such a perfect day but my heart can only focus on the deep pain within. “Oh death where is your sting? Oh grave where is your victory?”

Earlier this week a young husband and father was taken suddenly in a bicycle accident. The viewing was today at his well tended farm. His in-laws are Ben’s family. I have countless memories of traveling with their family as well as butcher day here at home. My heart breaks for his wife, their young son and the extended family.

We stopped to see my mom’s Aunt Edith. She suffered a major stroke 4 years ago this summer. She has suffered on and on.

She’s been unable to communicate for years now and We have prayed and prayed for her release. Recently things have changed even more for her and we think “Surely it won’t be long.” And yet she lingers. Waiting. My heart breaks again.

It’s hard to process these realities of life and death. One taken so soon and another longing to go. And It’s impossible to understand. I lift tear-filled eyes and a broken heart to the Almighty Heavenly Father and in a crazy way, my heart is drawn to worship. His Ways are so beyond what my mind can grasp. “I do believe! Help me overcome my unbelief!”

You are God and I am not – Dennis Jernigan

I run/ You run after
I hide/ You reveal
I cry/ You bring laughter
I hurt/ You heal
I’m weak/ You are able
I lack/ You’re enough
I turn/ You’re still faithful
I need Your love

I need Your provision
I’m lost / You’re the way
I’m confused / You are wisdom
I leave/ You stay
I fear/ You fear nothing
I’m blind/ You can see
I reject/ You are loving
You just love me

You are God, You are faithful
You are strong and You are able
You are God and I am not
And Lord I need you
You are God-all I’m needing
My Redeemer come redeeming

You are God and I am not
And Lord I need you



3 thoughts on “You are God and I am Not

  1. Wow interesting that you are facing such a similar thing in your community as we are. This has been a hard week where you long for heaven and the real ease from pain and suffering. Hugs and prayers for your family

  2. Thank you. Lovely song. The beauty in life nourishes my faith, but the suffering brings tough questions and hard moments. I’m memorizing the 11th chapter of Hebrews – it may take me all year, but it’s good for me – the constant reminder that we live this life in faith – that things we can’t see are real and important.

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